For a while now I have been asking the Holy Spirit to guide me, to speak
to me throughout the day. Today I realized that my prayers had been answered I
just hadn't been still enough to listen, to hear Him. It's so funny to me how
we pray and ask God for something but don't really think about what that will
take from us. We just expect it to be a huge thing we that happens in our life
that blow us away. God hears us, and he will answer us! 1 John 5:14 And we are confident
that he hears us whenever we ask for anything that pleases him (according to
His will). 15 And since we know he hears us when we make our requests, we also
know that he will give us what we ask for. But first, we must do our
part and pay attention to His direction.
I sit here looking back on situations where I was moving too quickly and
had my own agenda and things turned out
completely opposite of how I, myself imagined. I recall hearing check this or do this prior to acting in
a way that I saw fit BUT I had my mind already made up that I was going to do a
thing so I didn't listen, I wasn’t focused on being still to listen but more so
on what I thought needed to be done. Let's give an example to put things into
perspective. One weekend there were so many things I needed to get and I felt
pressed to get them because I only had one off day for a two week span. I heard
the Holy Spirit say check your account, but of course I was like “no, it's okay”,
I know how much I had to spend and I know I haven't reached that limit. The day
that I finally decided to check my account while bored at work I find out that I
had overdraft. Luckily I had the money to cover for it along with a few returns
to make but the overdraft could have easily been prevented. I could've used
different money on the final purchase of my off day or possibly gone without
something, but you see I had my own plans. I wasn't worried about being still
in that moment because I saw myself running out of time. Now I'm sitting here
asking myself whose time am I on? Who am I really living for? I say I'm living
for God and I say I submit to him, I say that I want to be a good steward of my
money and I have even asked God for help in that department but when it comes
time to do so I'm too worried about me.
We must focus on God, we must be patient enough in our daily lives to
listen and act when He tells us to. God is for us, He delights in us, He
doesn't want to see us fail but we have to be open to listen. We have to fully
trust him. We must die to our flesh and live according to the Holy Spirit.
Taking my time on this earth into my own hands is wasting time because I was
placed here for a purpose. Yes, I am to enjoy myself while here but I am not
supposed to get side tracked. Psalm 37: 4 Delight yourself also in the
LORD: and he shall give you the desires of your heart. I am not
supposed to forget who I serve and that everything I do here on earth is for God's
glory. I must remember that when I pray and ask God for things I am now held
accountable, I am now required to do my part and slow down a bit to make sure I
am hearing Him and being obedient to His direction.
Let's slow it down and allow God to speak to us. I have asked God to
speak to me all throughout the day, this means I need to be consistently
listening for His voice and telling myself to shut up! He won't always speak to
me when I want Him too but that's okay because I am to live according to His
time according to His plans for me.
For I know the plans I have for you," says
the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a
future and a hope.
